Thoughts in motion

Up so early... can't sleep.... its 6.26 am on a Sunday morning....

Woke up at 5.15 am.... not very fun cause I know later surely tired... but sigh couldn't really sleep....

brain all over the place..... mock exams is over and next week will be one week of 'holiday' but yet like unrelaxed.... the final is in a months time or so..... how to 'holiday'?? I don't know how....

Lets see... *picks the brain apart to see what to blog down..* hmm

Mistakes.... One would often think some one would learn from their mistakes... but in sad fact.... history repeats its self and people repeat the same mistake twice or more and maybe worst that before....

Often we hope to be let off the hook easily just cause we realise our mistake.. That is not really the possible case.... with everything wrong action is due responsibility and due punishment which ought to be brought down upon you... Thing is you never learn.... There is no check against you repeating whatever you did wrong the first time round

You are like a foolish soul charging down the road of life only to take a wrong turn twice cause practically the road in which you travel won't change over night. Living by that moment only to find yourself struggling to keep up with your own life....

Exams = white hair....

Growing white hair... getting old -.-

Coloured haird aso still got one stray white hair... like stray animal -.-

Events or occurrence the past week/weekend

1. CY at mcd

2. Dinner at Manjalara,Kepong steam boat

3. Youth choir at DP

4. Lunch at .99

5. supposedly study time at Eric's house

6. played cs instead

7. basketball in the rain

8. T6 mock exam

9. practice with the aim mates

Events to come

1. T7 mock exam(Tuesday)

2. Practice with aim mates(Wednesday)

3. T8 mock exam (Thursday)

4. T9 mock exam ( Friday)

5. Aim graduation + some service (Friday)

hmm.... ow well.....

Its amazing how accountants and and engineers has different ways of presenting the same thing... -.-

AvP donut -.-

Big apple Donuts.... they taste just ok ....

A&W root beer ..

Stretch you hands as far as you can
Even if it hurts yourself
Some one else's life mite be change
a little pain for a change in 1 life

Roller Coaster Ride To be

Imagine waking up in the morning suddenly. You know you set your alarm clock to ring but that wasn't the thing that woke you up.

A cold room yet you break a sweat. The dream that you had woke you up. A mix of emotion. A sweet thought of the person you admire and the scare of a work load ahead of your day. Your body feels as if it never slept. Tired and worry some you stretch out to look at your phone. Its 30 minutes till the time you're suppose to wake up. Fear creeps into your mind.

How will I survive the long day ahead.... By what means would I have the strength to finish all that I need to do?? I am so tired... I wish the next moments would just not come... maybe if possible... sigh

You step in a room filled with people you know only to find out of the work load that awaits during your week...

What do you do when all seems to come and slap you in the face...

What do you do when communication fail to bring across the msg that you want to share?? What if that dire point of your life comes and your cry for help could not be understood by any one?? You're forced to say things that does not represent your self just cause you don't know what else to say or do...

That's when it seems like that downward spiral comes... The fear grips your heart giving you a shake out of your shoes.... Fearful... likely.... but maybe if you're a thrill seeker you would love that escalation point... Necessary?? Doubtly.... Fun??? Unlikely...

Will you scream first on the way up and just keep quiet at the point where the screams ought to come?

Maybe that's good.... Hide everything so no one else knows and everyone else can be happy while you suffer in silence?

Just remember behind every mask is an individual and some one some where will definitely recognize you.... even if blood is shed and hearts are broken ... some one will come running at the end for all that you are and all that you do..hopefully la that is -.-

Such Pain

Hmm... Being sick ain't fun

Its 5 days and I haven't been able to recover... How unfortunate... Sigh.... Maybe I'm pushing my self too hard.... Study... Ministry.... Life.... Friends.... Either that or I'm just practically hopeless at managing my self....

Hmm don't care too much about yourself for others are going through situations which are much worst. Let those who love you care about you eh??

Ok lets see.... Sore throat, a weird relapsing fever it comes on and off at weird times... dry cough... and in the mornings I get too spit out wonderful coloured phlegm laced with streaks of blood due to a very bad throat.... don't worry its not vomiting blood... its just bruised throat....

"sexy voice syndrome" -.- I think only 2 people heard me over the phone with this voice... excluding family of course....

When I called Cheryl her first reaction was like... whoa..... so low!!! hahaha amusing

She's one happy girl ;) blessed beyond measure....

Hmm.... sigh.... finish up work and sleep early.... heh.... that's what I need to do.... been a little difficult .... Every time I close my eyes.... Thought run through my head... THis That THis THAT ... I wish life was a little bit easier... sigh...

Lalalala

More food normal food only...

cheese baked rice and the good old small big mac

To Rise Over and Above

It been a while since I sat down and write an article or some sort so I'll attempt to do so in this post.... pls comment as u all wish

To Rise over and above. Something my lecturer seem to always say in regards to study and life

In times of transition we are often left in a place where hope is dry and our dreams begin to shatter by the changing of circumstances. We tell our selves that it is necessary that we hold on to that dying dream only to find our selves passing it off as a far fetched hope or something deemed unnecessary in the line of responsibility to those we love.

Love drives our hearts and it shows in our actions. What governs us to do as we do is that which is in our hearts. If you lie about your situation to others, chances are you're lying to yourself about what you want. If u press your self down thinking you cannot succeed, chances are you're overstating that which is untrue.

Be positive not by means of simple standards but that of the standard which is set in your heart by those you love. Success isn't measured by a piece of paper stating the distinctions and grades but by the achievement in experience you earn. That which becomes your history, that which becomes your drive to rise above your circumstance.

You say you got a clear mind. How can your mind be clear if its fixed and locked upon the wrong thing or the item which you feel or think is right? Would you make up your mind first and then look to change it if something goes wrong or will u step in objective, searching for the right answers before making up your mind?

Why do you look to state your opinion when the base Principal by which you stand should speak louder than what you say? Are you based on result or are you based on the target which you set? Are you holding to your principals or are you just banging on your feelings??

How can you say your principals are correct if your first action is to comment on every mistake and things that are beyond your expectation??

There is a method to do everything. Don't give up. Hold on to Godly principals for they are sovereign. Methods may change but that which is good and is Godly stays and never change. Hold on firm and you will definitely rise over and above your circumstances.

Above those that has done you wrong. Above all that is expected of you. You will find favour in the eyes of many.

Always remember that grace which was first given to you