Roller Coaster Ride To be

Imagine waking up in the morning suddenly. You know you set your alarm clock to ring but that wasn't the thing that woke you up.

A cold room yet you break a sweat. The dream that you had woke you up. A mix of emotion. A sweet thought of the person you admire and the scare of a work load ahead of your day. Your body feels as if it never slept. Tired and worry some you stretch out to look at your phone. Its 30 minutes till the time you're suppose to wake up. Fear creeps into your mind.

How will I survive the long day ahead.... By what means would I have the strength to finish all that I need to do?? I am so tired... I wish the next moments would just not come... maybe if possible... sigh

You step in a room filled with people you know only to find out of the work load that awaits during your week...

What do you do when all seems to come and slap you in the face...

What do you do when communication fail to bring across the msg that you want to share?? What if that dire point of your life comes and your cry for help could not be understood by any one?? You're forced to say things that does not represent your self just cause you don't know what else to say or do...

That's when it seems like that downward spiral comes... The fear grips your heart giving you a shake out of your shoes.... Fearful... likely.... but maybe if you're a thrill seeker you would love that escalation point... Necessary?? Doubtly.... Fun??? Unlikely...

Will you scream first on the way up and just keep quiet at the point where the screams ought to come?

Maybe that's good.... Hide everything so no one else knows and everyone else can be happy while you suffer in silence?

Just remember behind every mask is an individual and some one some where will definitely recognize you.... even if blood is shed and hearts are broken ... some one will come running at the end for all that you are and all that you do..hopefully la that is -.-