The End of this

Hmm I've come to the end of this blog.... mainly for a few reasons...
THe first and MAIN one is I got a new camera and I wanna post up my pictures.... However the size of the photos are limited and I dont wanna destroy the design of this blog... if you notice the horizontal pictures are excellent in size.. however the landscape pictures... are cacated in size...

Hmm the 2nd one is that well... I got this feeling no one reads the crap I write anyways... so yar..... not say I update much anyways... =p

3rd well... the meaning of this blog is quite gone case already.... Here's why...

Desire doesn't burn with a flame... as in its not an eternal symptom.... it dies too easily... it has nothing to do with the fire of the heart..... in fact its just simple spurs of emotion encouraging u or suggesting to you to do something....

In AIM07... 1 year ago.. I had a great desire for many things.... to do... to make... and to see things happen... I had my dreams and desires... that were mine.... However... as I went along the line... even that which I wanted to see get smashed with sorrow and circumstances gets in between the illusion of reality that I became blind....

Ask me now what I want the most.. in other words my desire.... I'll tell you I don't know.... its a plain sheet of paper with a hole in the middle... in other words its rubbish...

I gave up on many of my friends... not all of course... why?? don't ask me why =.= it just is and it will be as it is... there are explanations... just not worth mentioning...

All that crap about friends that last forever.... I used to think its true.... but in the end... every one's got their own thing .... people never change.... WRONG... people do change.... but parts of them don't .... and some stay hidden forever till you probe at them and watch and understand.... many are crap... but some are great.... its like dung and diamonds.... diamonds tends to be small.. where as dung... can get very large.... in size =.= in a crude way... you can find shit every where anyways....

Busyness creeps into our lives.... some are crap... some are working hard.... Most are crap.... minority is working hard.... A bunch of lies.... with hearts of selfishness dwelling in every decision.... I am no saint.... but at least I know trying isn't that difficult....

No I'm not emo... Yes I'm stressed ... and Yes I'm really angry.... why?? No one would be able to imagine why.... except the very few who knows.... I just couldn't care any more...

Desires are crap.... Love is the key....
passion has weight.... and attitude is everything....
Sound cheesy?? Yeah it is... only if you're too dense

Hmm yeah this is my blog.. and I write what ever I like... harsh stuff?? yeah... think and understand what I mean.... if you get offended by what I wrote... well come tell me about it you stupid fool.... It is up to you to understand the words that are written... up to you to pick out the lessons and up to you to take offence....

You decide what you feel You control what you think... Think about it....

My new blog will be out maybe around Dec08 3rd week.... or next year depending..

Thoughts in cyberspace.... THe end for a new beginning....

Emmy's bday

Hmm Congrats to Emmy... she made it to 21 without going mad from Uni... =p haha....


well it was her bday ... and she was well celebrated.... Mabel and Karl I think... decided to well make her do a few things and all.... so it was like this...



Karl picks Emmy up from monash and goes to a petrol station and says he needs to go get something.... and there.... 3 'strangers' being Mabel, Brian and Seken... got into the car and drove off....

Then they gave her clues for her to figure out where she needed to go next
1st stop .. the doctors
she was suppose to sing the liverpool song loud loud and salute at the big poster in the clinic

Then off to the 2nd stop Usj13... her high school mates where there and they made her eat the following items
1. Dog Food
2. A concoction of sauces
3. Down the sauce with really sweet lin chee kang

and lastly made her do the 'hoola hoop' dance

no pictures of those cause most of us were waiting at Subang Parade.... However... mayb Brian has some... and there the whole thing was recorded on tape =)

Bday girl had too little food so she ate candle instead o.O haha the fishy people gave Emmy a cake and all of us a discount... a 10% discount... very weird... cause i paid about 35 and I got back RM1 from the discount hahaha.... do the math.. =) somethings not right but ow well haha

Seken was erm... asked by Emmy's mom to make sure he got everything on video...

Our table number....

In the footsteps of the 'Great Rachel Hoo'... who tends to put a random pic at the end... so here's one =)


Haha no I'm still a maxis user..... just the ducks remind me of Digi =.=

New toy in the past mth

Hmm an update... I got a new toy... a new dslr camera... Nikon D90 =)

Am totally happy with it... (say no to Canon) haha....

Here's a new thumb drive I got... I was playing with the editing tools and look wad it became hahha... its actually a blue silver 4gb thumb drive... wanted to get the 8gb.. but it din't have the colour I wanted.. so yar =p

This one ler is Mel's Phone... I kidnapped it in front of her and took picture of it... =)

This one ler.. random complimentary Tgv Ticket.... was sitting down in uni today.. some dude came up to us (us meaning a few of my class mates and I) said if we would go see JJ from Hitz.fm perform he would give us complimentary passes to TgV... then he suddenly looked at me.. and said here... This one is for You... if the rest of you want... just come by and watch JJ perform haha =) free ticket for nothing...

Picture of CiNa Beng... Kenny Ng

Life isnt very fair now.. is it??

Hmm it would seem people who are unworthy of anything... get everything =.= and people who have been doing everything... tends to be laden with rubbish and even more rubbish

Have pity on those who bare the trash of others for once =.=

Is it that difficult to sacrifice your own time for others.... I cannot believe how people break down under pressure or stress.. I applaud those who brave the rain.... but I am utterly disappointed that people would run away from their own responsibilities when it is so clear that its their fault things went wrong.....

Buck up.... who needs grass that follows the wind and people who have a standard that is nonsense ... He who is like grass does not amount to anything if they fail to uphold the simplest of personality for the sake of life.....

Wake up.... for once in this life time....

Sigh...

Effects of craziness as seen above..... hmm.... hope I survive this week end....

An ok week it has been

Yup... past week was oh kay.....Test was stressful.... Had 3 papers

F4- Cooperate & Business law
F5-Performance Management
F6- Taxation

Hope I do owhkay... I'm thinking my law kaputed already.... so come on 30 marks will do..... =) The other 2..well I hope to be around the 60s.... but its highly variable... Its so possible that I get 0 for everything I wrote....

Weekend was tiring.... really tiring.... Friday... F6 paper.... prayer meeting.. then pool... till like 230 at night....got home really late..... by the time I slept.... it was ... 3+ .... then woke up at 8 the next morning... went breakfast with mom... curry mee =) then.... music practice for youth.. had service...

Ps Steven spoke about what begins well mite not end well.... Haha I better get this part right else he will come after me... say I learn wrong thing all... haha =p ..... King Uzziah cousin on Isaiah..... Was in sense chosen by God to do great things in his youth days... but well long story short.... pride consumed him and he sort of fell... and was stricken with leprosy ... and died as that.... sad case so it seems....

I'm not sure if he said this but.... well God is looking for people who would listen to him... not people who would just work endlessly.... obey..... and listen =)

hmm.... Sunday went to church once again..... Ps Richard preached.... haven't heard him for a long time... went play pool in Asia Cafe... sang in choir for 3rd service.... went play bball... went eat dinner watched football with the bunch of guys.... and 2 girls..... Benjin,Timot Yee. Daniel Wong, Jon Yeo, Brian Chong, Joel Wong, Jon Yee, Josh Cheah.. There were more guys but some left earlier... hmm then Kat Yeo and Lisha.....

Monday was fun.... went lunch with Kenny, Rachel.... and scandal boy... Eric..... Sophie couldn't come....would think it was quite sudden..... didn't really plan for it till like... Sunday night I think.... Started calling people like around 9 or 10 something only... We went to eat in D'lish in Mid Valley... it was good.... had chicken and turkey ham carbonara..... didn't bother to take picture though... spent a good amount of time talking about different things.... especially scandal boy's story.... He kena tembak by all of use.. especially Rach... haha.... she kept giving him a kinda look haha.... Scandalous... haha... ow well... thats it lar.... Work work work.... I better start doing them... till next time...

No One Else

Hmm seemingly its always difficult for one to express themselves to another..... whether be it opinion, feelings or even simple care....

Some people get better with expression as times goes on... Some stay stoned for most of their lives... And some never really learn and constantly hurt others to get their own means... Often people who are in power think they've done enough on their part to communicate and express themselves before and hence forgets the ability to carry on that personal level communication with many.... deny this as you mite.... its true

No one else understands you better that you do.... Of course God is there... but on a human level... If you don't tell, no one will know.... If you close doors, don't expect people to come and attend to you .... If you're caught up, don't expect the valuable part to walk right in.....

Its the same in business, if you don't find business prospects... you don't expect to earn money.....If you keep your money in, You don't expect the investments and dividend to come to you.... and if you're too busy, you wont notice the good investments that come by....

why complete everything in life slugging through every moment?

Cars

Hmm okie so yeah been askin loads of peeps what are their dream cars....

Came up with these

BMW M6

Maserati GT

Volkswagen Beetle
Bentley Continental Gt

Ferrari F430

Lamborghini Mercialago

Mercedes Cls

and most of the time... for short term most peeps want the Honda Civic ...

Thats about it.... pretty boring rite.. =.=

If Love Was a Statute In Law

If love was defined in an Act.....
Lets say.... there is this law in God's courts where everything you want can be determined by words in other words... IF GOD Wrote LAW about love... so...

Lets say.... Love Actions Act.....

Main Section 1- Definition or Love
" love is a feeling which WILL cause an occurrence of an ACT or promise or any possible positive action towards a person or persons or any subject that is credible enough to be counted as existent weather spiritual or physical, dead or alive"

Section 2(a)
Love may be constituted with or without an Act or promise or any possible positive action

Section 2(b)
Love without any form of terms or conditions is considered absolute

Section 2(c)
Love without sacrifice is void

Section 2(d)
Negative action in general nullifies Love except for acts provided through disciplinary action and acts to protect.

Section 2 (e)
Positive action does not necessarily constitute an act of Love

Well... it is known that .... Love is the main fundamentals of much of our lives..... good or evil aspects..... its too wide that.... in truth.... A statute for love cannot be made by a mere man... making each section above only reasonably persuasive...

But In simple understanding and acceptance..... Love is nothing without sacrifice.. on a human level.... love without an act is seen as rubbish and may not even be accepted as love....

Check out 1 Corinthians 13 if u want better Love actions definition... it has a few versus... but yeah its better ... by light years compared to my nonsense

Long Awaited Update Part 2

Ok part two..... time line from 080808-100808..... yet another long week end....

Started with Friday class.... about 3 hours of law... I practically learn Cooperate Law and Business law only... I don't learn criminal law.. which consist of pinal codes and what not.... I learn the contracts act, company act, ITA, and a few others..... which really isn't too fun.... Memory work isn't my thing....

The highlight of the week is i got a new pool cue... Its nice... but its a ladies cue..... =.= sadly.. yes.... its good... use is fine... weight is normal.. just that it was fashioned for Alison Fisher... BUT in actual fact... it doesn't matter...... a cue is a cue.. it hits well and better than any other cues I ever got... so yeah.... future girl friend... a note to you.. I got a cue for you before I bought my own =p I'm likely looking for the same range but different design..... may get another mayb in December.... Christmas present to myself ;) .....

Week end was long... and winding.... had a meeting which was long..... CCC carnival coupon sales is like if the pool cue was the highlight.. the coupon sales is the other end of the world..... I did NOT... I repeat... DID NOT ... want to do the sales of this coupons..... The way which I was appointed would make normal leaders cringe and say.... what the???

Saturday night was a combined bday party for Eric Marc, Wei Chin and a farewell for Beng Ian. Not as smooth as expected... but it was a real struggle for me..... tired.... unmotivated... and thoughtful..... I mean.. seriously.... everything wasn't too good...

Sunday was a day of singing.... choir in DP..... but I struggled through service.... Too tired... head jumping with thoughts..... what off... who cares eh.... After that a session of pool... then a session of basket ball.... and that the end of that....

Monday was day filled with classes... Imagine.... classes from 8-6 with 15 minutes and 30 minutes intervals every 1 and a half hour.. yes the breaks sounds adequate... but really not when it comes to law, performance management and tax.... ur brain actually switches off.... Every Monday its a common thing that I take a Red Bull first... if that isn't sufficient... extra bucks spend on San Francisco coffee .... either an espresso latte or plain single or double shots of espresso depending on the severity of the tiredness....

Well this week end will be yet another long one.... Started Friday morning at 630am..... and imagine that when i got home it was 1230am.....

Tomorrow.. up at 7... got to be in college by 730... one question unfinished =.= ..... Plan to finish it in that half an hour before class.... 8-2.... Ms Rozi says it will likely end by 2 .... HOPEFULLY....

then after that rush to youth..... and yet another youth service.... run by THEM.....

This week end will be the longest week end to endure..... Monday is results..... 2 classes... only fortunately... Sunday its 1st service... return coupons... have good pan mee or dim sum which ever... and then over to Wei Chin's house for practice..... Everything to ME and I Will always have You....

OWH GOD .. please... help me .....

Long Awaited Update Part 1

Hmm its been a long while.. so I guess i'll just pop in some words for those who actually still reads this...

Past 2 weekends seemed like the longest week ends.... Starting from Friday all the way to Sunday night

010808-030808

Started with a wonderful morning up at 630... as usual... bath in nice warm water but its been 3 weeks since the toilet no light... have to use this portable lamp.... which is practically a mini florecent lamp.... its like if I wanted light.... I have to find ways to get it fixed.. cause.... well.... no one else will do it anyways... =.=

Tax class from 8-11.... it was alright... tax class is quite relaxing.... unlike law which is absolutely dry.... that day if i'm not wrong learnt about business income..... and badgers of trade =.=

After that picked Benjin up.. went around Sunway looking for a steam boat place for the next day.... It was Friday and only then wanted to go book a place for the party.... super late.. and the worst part is Drove around like blind fella... why BJ dint know where exactly was the place.... so irritating.... He shud be glad... He just had to sit in the car and be happy.... =.=

I forgot what I did on that night.... but if I'm not wrong ... Got back very late =.=

Sturaday came.... took mom for breakfast in the morning.... came back printed some papers and scores for worship service.... after youth went for the 'supprise bday party for Jon Yee'

Led a pack of cars..... drivers were Josh Cheah , Tabitha Ong , Kenny Ng and... Joshua Yap

Poor Ken... Got left behind half way haha

People who attended the party were Sophie, Rachel, Wei Chin, Kenny, Benjin, Timot Yee, Joshua Kanesan, Josh Cheah, Katrina Yeoh, Tabby, One of tabby's friends I think, Eric, Darren Yong, Joshua Yap, Jon Yee ... duh.... , Daniel Wong..... and my self... I think I'm missing some people.... but ow welll

After that went to play pool and foos ball with the bunch.... that ended about 120.. by the time i got back... it was like 2.. bath slept at 3

Was up at 630 the next morning (Sunday) went for 1st service... why cause BJ asked me too... after 1st service he wanted to take His sis and her sum si friend to play pool after breakfast.... In Cheras... and if I came... a lot of barang baik for him... no need to drive lar... petrol free lar.... he just syok go and enjoy oni.... so it seems the gals enjoyed.. so thats good I think...

They had meeting at 130 back in church.. so u can build the timeline of travel and activity.... dropped them back... went driving around Bukit Damansara.... looking around the place.. figuring out the roads... was done by about 230 .... went by mcDs and chit chat.... talked about cars as usual....

Lamborghini Gallardo with a 5 liter v10 engine

Hmm one day lar right... Drop him back at church about 3... went off to Sunway Pyramid ... Went for Passion Conference.... It was good... visit Mel's Blog for more details

It was awesome.... Mayb mite blog about that in Long Awaited Update Part 3 .. will talk more about the previous week end.... 080808-100808 in part 2.... sigh...... now I'm lazy to write any more... will continue tomoro.... -.- sigh....

Sighh

Enough is enough... I truly hate so many things... and I can't stand it any more...

1) Come on lar..... prioritize and think carefully lar.... always give people nonsense.... 1 word.... hopeless....
2) Get a life lar.... figure what ever you have left and get on with everything else....
3) Is it that hard to just play your role?? Why the hell am I laden with expectation??
4) RESPOND.... is that difficult or is that a little too much to ask for??
5) for goodness sake let me have my way for once....
6) want me to eat grass ar huh???
7) WHY??? too busy for everything else ar huh??
8) healed already walk lar..... want people hold u for wad....
9) WHY ask when you don't follow through??
10) have you ever thought about making my day a memorable one??
11) Stupid PARASITE

Each of this is designated to one individual only... if you figure it out good for u... if you don't too bad...


Hmm the stupid PSU which had to GO BOOM

more food pics.... =.=

I'm actually only hopeful in 2 things

1st thing _______________
2nd thing ______________

take a wild guess..... maybe can get it right.....

Love Enough??

Think when you first start stepping into a life that you feel you decided to live.... now what if that all broke down and your heart bleeds out of disappointment... no where to go no one to turn too....

Your love’s enough to see the broken hearts

Gain a brand new start with a brand new heart
As the faithful hope in things unseen
You’re enough to see all the things they dream
Come to life

As usual... the more you think you know.. the more u know u actually don't know.....
Its tough to live a life where you need to be in control just so you don't blow your own mind away..... the more grip you have upon your live the more useless it seems to become... this is not a car race.... grip is useless... it is only eyes that are ever fixed on your life that will wait and see your dreams come to life ......

We’re living in the Saviour today
And this day is what we have now
In this moment we have chosen to praise
And it’s changing how we live now

We have one life one call..... it really is all we have.... often you become the only hope to some one else.... do you realize that..?? Does people drive you to be who you are?? or are you unmoved by what happens around you??

Your love it broke my fall
It’s more than enough and I need it
‘Cause I’ve never known better
And I’ll never know better

This love will see me soar
It’s more than enough and I need it
‘Cause I’ve never known better
And I’ll never know better

He cares and he will do everything.... but I really believe that its through people which he works.... The friends will come and be your back bone when you feel paralyzed.... wisdom will come as you need it..... friends will come as you need them.... will they??

My Saviour
You’ll never let me go
AND IN YOUR HANDS MY FUTURE'S BRIGHTER

Your love it broke my fall
It’s more than enough and I need it
‘Cause I’ve never known better
And I’ll never know better

This love will see me soar
It’s more than enough and I need it
‘Cause I’ve never known better
And I’ll never know better

Exams over

Exams over... at last.... but who cares... sigh... feels indifferent

It was good that I finally met you again after 1 and a half years.... I was glad to have seen you... kinda missed you... but I grow to wonder..... why did we as friends go so far apart?? sigh.... I've known you for 3 solid years apart from the 1 and a half.... but WHY?? really WHY??

I realise I'm giving up on friends..... give me reason not to ..... I guess most of people are caught up with their own things.... and I'm just another person standing by the window looking on at life's window....

Will anything from here on be JUST for ministry sake?? that TESTIMONY??? who knows.....

Owh GG

Hmmm I think I'm starting to get addicted to tv... not good... since I gg the other time I've been seriously watching a lot of tv

Numb3rs
CSI
Mythbusters

and a lot of other stuff.... a LOT of random shows

Suppose to study today.... Instead I started thinking of a lot of "what if.... this and that" ahhhh
Ow well Not that bad lar


Exams on Monday(audit) and Tuesday(tax) and great success..... end for the semester... followed by a wonderful '2 WEEKS' break that is soooo WOW!!!

Thing will get better in time eh.. mayb...


Hmm

Strawberries, my rings and a sashimi salad... that's about it...

Back to what I think I do best

Instead of being grumpy... and posting stuff about me.. I thought i shud go back to what I 'Think' I do better... FoOD stuff eh....

Usual Food.... mash potato, meatballs, caramel frap, sushi... and some other random pictures.. enjoy...

Narrow Path

I've been waiting for something great that never seem to come... We all do

We walk through a path that is narrow

The valley of death

Blood bathed thorns jab you in the side

Bathed with your own blood

Choose a difficult path where no mere man can be triumphant over it.

Past mistakes will surely haunt you, like a broken record replaying it self

What seemed to be joy soon becomes your grief

When everything goes wrong, Even what seems to be your shelter tumbles down.

A poorly build roof over your head, likely to kill you when disaster strikes

'Though the world may laugh at whom my heart serve'

I will stand still and be strong... I will find refuge in the One I love...

'All that I AM Unto You I surrender'

You've said this before haven't you?? What Happened Then??

Oh surely, help will come... Maybe... Hopefully...

Stuck

Hmm I feel so stuck... in a situation which I don't feel like I have the right to complain

I'm very very stressed out with exams that are coming up... Have I done enough?? I don't think so... I lay down at night feeling alone that if i do not do well I WILL be alone to face that fact.... The few that often ask me how am I??? I don't know how to tell you what I feel.... Its just unfair if I complain about everything I'm going through cause WHO deserves to listen to crap just cause I fail to hold up my own head??

If there is cracks.... conceal them quickly with cement.... who wants to see cracks up a supposedly good wall....

One day I was crying driving home.... being FED UP with my life..... being stuck.... I get no rest.... A lifestyle that is on edge..... and to imagine... the more rest I do get ... the more things I have to do when I get up.... I was just thinking hey what if I gave up on everything around me and wait for people to come to me..... Heh..... I realise its NOT MY CHOICE..... I HAVE NO CHOICE.... the live which I live isn't mine..... I made my self a promise a long long time ago.... that I will NEVER cry unless I really cannot bare the pain in my heart.....

I do to others what I hope others can do for me.... but most if not ALL fail.... I've tried to tell but words wont come..... I know there are some... Especially one whom can read my expressions well .... but sad to say I don't know how to express whats in my heart and on my mind... my concerns and pains all don't come out the way I'd hope you can understand..

I have wonderful friends.... some who can be absolutely lovable and some that can FAIL SO DAmm badly that they can't even think of you in the slightest of issues.... hmm hey wait after all who cares eh..... you're not in my shoes.... you don't give half as much as you supposedly can after all.....

Sigh

Sigh I so wish things aren't like this.......

Heat

Apparently today is just super warm.... Been at home the whole day.... absolutely nothing to do but study... but too lazy to do so ow well

argh.... sweating in your own home... what a phenomena

Bummed Out

I'm quite gg fied today so I'll just post a bunch of pictures and let the pictures speak for them selves... most of them are already on facebook or Cheryl's blog.... so ow well

Blessed birthday to Mabel.. First time bday shout out on my blog.... I think.... ow well...