Balance of hope and dissapointment....

Well erm been out the whole day yesterday.... Went out with Kat once again... brought her for some good seafood noodles....

By far the best seafood noodle I know ^.^

We visited a couple of places like Damansara Perdana and The guitar store... Bought some picks cause I lost all of my other picks especially my first few picks during AIM time

I got back the same orange one I lost cause I liked that pick =p

Check out my dinner for Monday night... I skipped dinner cause I had a late lunch so at 10 something at night I got really hungry therefor I dug out these stuff to eat

Well its a pizza and a packet of chocolate milk. It tasted not bad...

Hmm ow well... anyways... Hope and disappointment's generally comes hand in hand... Put your hopes high and when things don't happen you get disappointed . The more hopeful you are, the more disappointed you'll feel when your hopes are crushed.

When you are disappointed you feel lousy and when you feel lousy you lose hope. So in that case where does hope comes from??

I think it would be desire. In which you want to see something happen so you hope it happens. When some one crushes your hope by letting you know what you hope for cannot come true, you question and you sort of 'apply out' all your remaining hope and you wallow in uselessness.

A good balance of hope and faith is definitely necessary or else you'd destroy your self once you face a problem or your hope is crushed...

Things are never as bad as you make them. There is a loop hole of hope in every situation. Find it Fix it and you'll be well on your way.. Trust me .. take that from me ^.^

Thanks for the memories

I'm gonna make you bend and break
(It sends you to me without wait)
Say a prayer but let the good times roll
In case God doesn't show
(Let the good times roll, let the good times roll)
And I want these words to make things right
But it's the wrongs that make the words come to life
"Who does he think he is?"
If that's the worst you got
Better put your fingers back to the keys

One night and one more time
Thanks for the memories
even though they weren't so great
"He tastes like you only sweeter"
One night, yeah, and one more time
Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories
"He, he tastes like you only sweeter"

Been looking forward to the future
But my eyesight is going bad
And this crystal ball
It's always cloudy except for
When you look into the past (look into the past)
One night stand (one night stand off)

They say I only think in the form of crunching numbers
In hotel rooms collecting page six lovers
Get me out of my mind and get you out of those clothes
I'm a liner away from getting you into the mood, whoa

One night and one more time

I like this song but I don't really get it... explain it to me >.<

Har Der Har Der Har....(Rae i blame u for the har der har ) =.=

Hmm This morning went to breakfast with Kat... Was really bored so decided just take her out to chat with her... We went to SS2 for some har mee(prawn mee) at mee yoke lim... its like d best har mee I've ever tasted ....

Then we went to Starbucks.... drank a Mocha Frap... it was OK only... not as good as they used to be


We talked about a lot of stuff. And she really ain't as quite and soft spoken as she seems... she just needs to get to know you. Then she's actually quite fun to talk to.. And no I'm interested in some one else.. not Kat.... She's my erm sis ^.^ Dropped her off soon after that because her friend Celine... wanted to come over and kidnap some DVDs...

I came home bored as usual... to my surprise Amanda Lee is back from the USA... So yeah ... she's back... if you don't know her.. er... she's my old school buddy from SKSSJ same time as a lot of my other good friends... and Ben Toh as well...

after a while i decided to cook something up for my self... was getting hungry you see =p
Maggi mee With chicken sausages and some roast duck. Well it did taste much much better then plain old maggi mee... Had a chat with Rae about the kinda stuff we can add to maggi mee... i personally like clams and sausages... Yes yes some would say why waste the ingredients on maggi mee?? It actually is quite satisfying... you should try it


After that I amazingly fell asleep for 1hour and a half... miracle in action...

Here are some more erm food pictures Sushi and Unagi with rice... Both from sushi Zanmai once again... Went there last Friday with Daryll, Han Xin n Felyn...

*sushi*

*unagi with rice*

Thats about it for the day... woot!!

Sharing Caring

My wish list seems out of this world isn't it, Quite impossible for anyone to get for me.

My more down to earth stuff that I want I won't share cause I'm not generally well happy when some people bless me with stuff... I'll feel bad....

I guess the most valuable thing any one can share with me is their thoughts and whats going on with them. I'll gladly help you out in time of need as far as I can only if you let me too. I can approach you but if u fend away and not open up there is nth I can do to help you even if i wanted to.

There was once a girl who never felt save to share her thoughts with her friends or family. She became very closed and defensive in everything she does. I some how knew she needed a friend at least cause everyone around her would tease her and make fun of her. She was quite good looking and very intelligent but no one wanted to help her out cause some how they just didn't

I approached that girl talking to her about numerous things. She opened up and shared a little but then she went hide away soon after. I followed up but no response and I now know nothing about whats going on with this young girl.

Watch your self for genuine people. I know many around are there to deceive and get the best out of you. To 'have fun' with you and then hurt you. Chuck you aside as if you're rubbish. Think and evaluate carefully.

Observe your friends, you'll surely be able to tell who are the once that are looking for peace or attention, help or just to have fun, love or hate.

Guard your self. Guard your image. Increase your brain activity but guard your thoughts. Don't let your lustful desire, infatuation and personal needs get in the way when you are trying to help or get to know some one. But hey... what if you fall in love with the person you're trying to help?? That's why I said guard your self. Love isn't everything. People need help more than anything.It could be in relationships, in decision, family, friends or financially. People need help

Are you going strive to give or to receive.. I choose to give...Receiving would be nice... but I won't expect it. Never

Wish list

Since I saw Annabelle's wish list....I thought I would make one of my own

1. Apple MacBook Pro

2. Any 3g Sony Ericsson Hp

3. A DSLR camera... Nikon or Cannon is fine
4.A brand new car ( I'll be contented with a Honda Civic 2.0)
5. A lcd dash board unit for my car(its a touch screen)
6. A sub woofer for my car
7. A cd/dvd changer for my car
( I split them up so that my list would be longer... if not its just... brand new car audio system)
8. A nice condo for my self...
9. A nice BOSS stereo system for my room
10.An Ipod would be nice

11. Some new formal clothes
12. An external hard disk
13. Extra ram for my current com 2 sticks of 1gb ram would be nice...

14. a brand new com processor.

15. A Tag Heuer watch ^.^(the exact one below)


Thats about it i guess... drop some comments on what you think about them..^.^

Yesterday

Ahh yesterday wasn't too good. I'm sick now. Stupid sore throat. But well i ate quite good food. Had jap foood at Sushi Zanmai at Sunway Pyramid. The food was great but the best part is that the service was good and the food tasted better

There that was d chopsticks cover. I wanted to take the menu but ow well i just dint

As you can see those were the sushi i ordered. They do have the kentai but if you order they still bring you fresh stuff. The salmon sushi was only RM3.00 a plate. The salmon was fresh and thick. Mom ate a chicken katsu. She was quite hungry cause it was late but she couldn't finish her food cause she said too much chicken. I ate like almost 20 sushi + 2 temakies. The total bill came up to about Rm 55 which is considerably cheap for most standards
Brought my mom for that movie last night. 2hours 50 minutes +- wei.... Such a coincidence I met my primary school mates in the same cinema right beside me.

The movie was great. Full of action, it beats Spiderman3. But of course the show wasn't the show of all times

Hmm... Sounds great right. Except the sickness now makes me feel miserable.... anyways.... Was out like till 3am the past 3 days so I am to blame for falling sick also la.. Sleep at 4 wake up at 830 sharp the next day. I some how have a built in clock now that wakes me up at this time every day. Not very fancy. I hate sleeping >.< a short nap throws off your body clock. It really does >.<

Looks great rite the pic... Jon Yee would like this but i doubt he visits here... So... ow well

That's it... tata

Helplessness

Well don't wallow your self in self pity when you're sad...
Don't complicate the situation especially when its bad enough...

Rely on God not people for people tend to fail you...
Don't be stubborn for stubbornness will cost your dearly.. it will consume you that in the end of the day you end up suffering and having no idea why u suffering...

Unresolved anger, hatred and dissatisfaction causes you do explode at the point of time but it become a nagging pain once you 'forget' not solve it...

Many wants to get close to you, but not all are worthy of trust.... Find pick choose wisely

Then again sometimes it really reflects on your self... What you do affects others around you... If you are respected.. no one will dare make fun of you or hurt you... If you are trust worthy no one will want to betray your trust...

Question your self... have I done something to deserve the problems I face... Are the people around me treating me better than I am treating them... if they are... why am I still hopeless??

Selfishness?? Unresolved issues?? well who knows....

Pain never goes away
Scars that hurt so bad stay for eternity...
Why can't find truth?? Or is it more of you can't accept it because you want something else

Search around search your self.. find your own answers

Solution

There will always be problems around. People turn you away, friends don't give you answers you want to hear. Friends leave for a place far away?Friends can't help, parents can't help and even siblings turn their heads. Face it we have to take care of our self.

Have a look at
Solution by Hillsongs united

It is not a human right
To stand afar while broken nations dream
Open up our eyes, so blind
That we might find the mercy for the need

It is not too far a cry
Too much to try to help the least of these
Politicians should not decide if we should rise
And be your hands and feet

Higher than our circumstance
You promise and your love for all to see
Higher than our protest lines and dollar signs
Your love is all we need

Hey now
Fill our hearts with your compassion
Hey now
As we hold to our confession

Whoa-oo-ooh
God, be their solution
Whoa-oo-ooh
We will be your hands and be your feet
Yeah Yeah


Yeah we're down and we're called to shine how much harder can our life get?

Hey come on... God be the solution to your problems... Its a promise and that's it... Be patient

I long to live this resolve from this day onwards... To hold this up as great as I can for this is what have been asked of me..... The sadness shall no longer be seen as it is binded by God's love...

Nothing much but well

Watch Heroes.. its cool... many say i look like Hiro Nakamura i doubt so .. Do you think so??

Hmm ahh yes May 13 was Ben's birthday... so on May 11th... Daryll and I thought of bringing Ben for a well treat... More of he had no choice but to follow. We met up with Mei Peng. She came back for NS as you can see... She happily posted in the chat box... ahhaah =p

So yes a picture Ben couldn't finish his food. He as like transferring fries to me. Which looked super funny... Even Mei Peng was able to finish the burger... ahah commical

See he's transferring fries... -.- Don't he look like a kid -.-

So yeah... erm... hmm past few days hasn't been good.. problems after problems.. when one down.. another at face.. -.-

Just a little thought
If i were to change half my actions to favour my self.. instead of others... would I really be happy??

Guess not... Desires are hard to handle.. It would be nice if some one would walk beside you... it some how quenches your human desire.... of wanting company.. or attention for that matter... Spirituality and humanity . By right humanity shouldn't exist but sadly it does.

You give out to some one out of the sheer desire to bless them yet you always want something in return. You don't expect but you hope. Which I think is different in away. Its the more of the that would be nice kinda thing.

Hmm the song that plays when you open the blog.. yes i'm learning that now in my vocal class.. Some how it makes me think... A lot... -.- saddens... mayb its cause it classifies as emo song -.-

Ow well thats it

Moody Times

Updates after so long....

Graduated from AIM... a little difficult to get all the pictures.. so well none to post on for now...
Visit my class photographer's blog Rachel Hoo. She has all the great pictures and a more interesting blog to read. So yeah go there for pictures

A bit more freed from the things I have to do. These few days are days of sheer boredom. Had a lot of time to think about friends and family and things I'm going to do and what not. Its funny how when you try to be nice, people think you've got some hidden agenda.

Its irritating if you're always busy. There is no point in being busy if you can't spend time to share things with friends or people who are just trying to be there for you. I haven't been that very free but I'm trying to make it up to friends who looked for my company. Well don't just give excuses. You can surely make time if you want to. I could. Why can't you.

Looking carefully at life. Many times the reason we need our parents is only for money. How many of us these days will just die without out parents. Well what I'm trying to say is its best to let relationship with parents be more than money. Get to know parents and hope they see it the same way as you do.

When you have much, much is expected of you. We don't expect things in return but well that would be nice.

What kinda hope are we bringing to people... Look at your self... then look at your family and friends. Don't be two faced in you life. Never be. If you are. You are in no petition to say comment or correct anything.

Think about all this